Monday, 23 February 2009
It is always just a moment. A moment to put that smile on your face. A smile on mine.
When you walk towards me. With a little look of uncertainty. And another look of certainty. It makes me smile. It makes me forget any doubts I may have.
I am done doubting. I dont need to know the beginning or end anymore.
It is this. This very moment I need. This very moment I want.
Yesterdays and Tomorrows will sort each other out.
Right now at this very moment... this is it.
We live in fantasies.. and so very happily :)
We dream... we breathe in a world that might be so different from what we imagined yet we can so securely build a fantasy and weave a different secure world right in one nice cosy corner of our heads...
I have one... it isnt different from what is around me but it has loads of optimism :P
This is one of those random posts saying absolutely nothon of substance... I am just writing.. for fun.. just like that...
So what has been happening lately... hmmmm... Well whatever has been happening has been making me smile everyday... new things that I am looking forward to even if they are complicated...
I am having a good time!! :)
This was damn random!! :D
Sunday, 15 February 2009
where are you??
the one who is supposed to love me through all my craziness! The one who will actually stand his ground when he says I will love you like no other and through the most furious storms.
Hurry up and come because I miss you. I dont know you yet but I miss you... I know you will make me calmer and make my impulsive childish heart love again..
I am waiting :)
Saturday, 14 February 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
I am suddenly better. I am suddenly fine. I am suddenly realising that this is it. The people have been chosen and I have not been picked.
How many posts I wrote about how if he waited and we met again, we would be great.. HOw many posts I wrote about him. Maybe it was unfair for me to ask something like that.
He has a heart too. And the right to let his heart be free. Free of me.
I am happy for him. And his heart. And for all who live in it.
I was worried for myself. Worried that I may never be able to feel again. Feel so loved. But I think I will manage.
Maybe this is what I needed for closure. Maybe I needed him to state it simply that me and him will never be together. Ever again.
He will never whisper in my ears songs of love. He will never wish for me to be with him on nights of rain. His hand will never hold my hand again. Or cradle my head.
I love... I will always... I wish I had never left. I wish that so badly.
But I will be fine. And he will be happy.